my blog dedicated for my daily activities about my hobby (photography,bands,arts,random stuff and especially MY DIARY) lol
i couldnt love just anyone but i was created to love just one girl named SURI MILLS :)
thats all about me :D
her: HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE?
BENJI: when you wake up and theyre youre first thought and youre looking at your phone to see if theyre text or called you while you wre asleep. and when you go to bed, you fall asleep thinking about them. when you miss them even though it hasnt been more than a day or since youve last seen them. but mostly, when you put their needs before your own. when their happniess is more important than your pain. when you really love someone youre willing to give it your all. and you will know when you are :)
You only see a person from what they want and allow you to see. I always try to look as put together as i can, and i guess thats my way of hiding from the truth. it just that that way everyone will asume that evrything in my life is ok. That i never go through anything. If only everyone knew how broken i am. and how im holding on for dear life on this one last strand thats recently become very delicate. the truth is that no one really knows me. no one will ever “knew” me and sometimes that scares me because no one will ever know why i am the way i am
LAST THING BEFORE I GO @BenjiMalik
-saya ingin dilahirkan kembali-
you have no idea how my feel when i know i cant be there when you need me,i cant help you when you have problems, i cant clean your tears when you cry, i cant hold your hands when you cold. i’m sad..
i hope youll understand, someday.
dont ever let your tears running down you beautiful face, you know why? it breaks my heart.
maaf kalau selama ini gw pernah punya salah, gak bisa minta maaf satu2 karna keterbatasan gw.
mohon maaf sebesar besarnya selama masa hidup gw suka buat marah :)
maaaf beribu ribu maaaaf
belum lama ini gw buat twitter,gw udah punya banyak temen didunia maya. selain temen2 gw yang dijakarta xD
berkat david sahabat gw hehe,gw juga pernah jadi admin disalah satu fanbase greyson xD tapi gak lama gw keluar..
dilla,dessy,ratri,sarah,tanti,azura,dona,sarah,aisya dan yang lain mereka yang paling gw hafal haha xD karna twiter gw isinya mereka semua
ohya buat perempuan2 yang gak jelas tetangganya david yang dipadang hehe namanya gak usah disebutin xD thanks buat present kalian, lemari gw penuh kado dari kalian xD
kalian terbaik pokoknya xD
dari kecil saya udah dibiasain untuk taat sama agama kayak shalat dan ngaji.
maklum berhubung saya lahir dipakistan jadi keluarga saya otoriter dalam mendidik saya tentang agama.
biasanya saya shalat berjamaah,kakak saya bijan yang jadi imamnya. kalau shalatnya cuman saya,dia dan kakak perempuan saya jasmine. tapi kalau kita punya kesibukan masing2 kita shalat sendiri2 jadinya.
shalat yang paling saya senengin shalat subuh,karna biasanya bijan qunut saya selalu tidur hehe. dan kalau bijan lagi males jadi imam dengan liciknya dia langsung pergi kekamarnya. ujung2nya dia tidur pasti haha
dalam doa saya,saya minta yang terbaik buat saya dan keluarga saya. gak lupa saya minta kesembuhan, saya tau hanya mukjizatnya yang bisa menolong saya.
ibu,bapak,kakak2 saya juga turut mendoakan buat saya.. terima kasih.
saya tetep jalanin hari2 saya seperti biasa, walaupun suka drop kadang2 mimisan gak jelas. itu udah biasa..
saya gak akan ngeluh,saya diciptakan untuk mengabdi kepadanya bukan untuk mengeluh..
karna saya tau Allah punya maksut lain buat saya
suri your amazing :) i’m absolutely lucky to have you :)
i wish i would never leave you alone, yeah i cant keep my promise cause ive my own reason
im sorry i cant be the best for you, soryyyy
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